sigh, one head is slow

steppin over, ego
no more info lego
formatted fart disk
list the risks or listen to my fist

im prove salvation now, but how ?
eat beef not cows, and say: au, yeah !

i would like to say start with:

who wants to be part of something, does not listen to own singin !

since i just like to communicate the basics anymore i thought for some days, that might be enough to publish. tragically i am just in the mood to underline this change in here and write some more important thoughts i just have into this blog. i hope that these thoughts also mean some kind of basics for you.

i wish i could have said more intelligent stuff over the last year but sadly, that was not possible for me. my self esteem was below zero and often i felt paralized. resigning very often, very early didn`t made it any better.

in some very rare moments i felt to have the words to explain the whole remaining complexity of the world in three sentences cause i think that me, like everyone else, carries complexity of a personal world into every place and conversation. yeah, that can drive one crazy but when one wants to practice patience and stuff like that, it`s also comes quite to the right time. recently, there have been a lot of possibilities to do so, practicing to swallow and listen to more shit. i hope, one day i`ll be able to write some three sentences down but to do so, i cannot stop listening to even more shit. it sounds like i am addicted to shit, and that`s nothing new but that`s how it works for me: in conversations with nice people i always get inspired by shit. in conversations with not so nice people, i tend to believe the shit. anyway, today i don`t like to smoke shit anymore cause i know that the drugs don`t work in some sense at all and i like to sing with the elementary school kids of bill cosbys album from the eighties all day long.

again, anyhow, after so long time skipping to post something into this blog and “ruining my chances to get ever any kind of employment” except those i like to have, i am happy to say that this world has made me a lucky boy, knowing all kind of shit while still not having read most of the cool and deep books out there… the world of thoughts and it`s development wasn`t driven by manuals !!

you know what the problem of personalisation is, no matter if it`s happening in the user interface or in the real world, the problem remains the personalisation !

i am still likely to hope that these times help human beings to get wiser through informing the masses and enable more people to be open minded. i still don`t know how deep this hole in one is but one thing is for sure, it doesn`t matter cause humans can think and in some years there might be another level of common talking.

yesterday i wrote my first poem, it was kind of interactive and in german. it was based on some randoem words which came from the audience of the bar. i had around 25 min. to think of some other words to put them together, i already had a really full head from the day i spent at work, but it was not soo bad, i heard. i just wanted to tell, it`s great not to feel paralized that often anymore and i guess that something like easy lovin, made this happen.

so as me, for example others take the apporach to think more about death and i think that comes out of the knowing that this is much better than not to think of death at all, “running blind” or in “stupid hectic” through the world. i still like to run around like “blind” but now it`s a completely different thing, i can understand why.

that`s nearly it for today and some others too. just one more thing to say, which is quite tough but simple and therefore, maybe understandable for a lot of other people, too: If someone runs around blind, spitting poison with every act he makes, spitting out loud faceless phrases, covering words which are spoken in a soft tone of voice, if this being is not going to kill you, it will most probably make you stronger !